the capital P

i'm proud of myself

because

i havent been drinking for 1 week

i havent been sneaking out for 2 weeks

.
i have been sleeping early for the past 1 week (at 1am)

i havent touch any cig since 10 nov.

i have been around home



i have been talking and chilling with my mum

i cut down on cursing.

i am not proud of myself

because

i finally got my ass screwed. in other words kena kantoi. (one more time and i swear i'm jailed)



i cant bring myself to touch books. while others are already busy with tuitions and crash courses.(chen all the way at teluk intan just to go tuition everyday while ming, sern and almost everyone's taking crash course at nirmala's. what have i done? eat, sleep, online, tv!)

i do not have a strong will power.

i don't get a fucking thing about accounts. (i didnt open my acc's file fucking long till it became white ant's nest. plus old hag refered me as agong. me going to class is like agong joining her class.. =.=")

i think of living in dreamland. when obviously there isnt such thing.

i jump to conclusion.

i like the idea of random.

things may look unknown.
objects may look fuzzy.
but the work of curiosity makes it all clear.

dived in.